In God's Waiting Room
The 10th of July 2020, time is 10.36pm.
I am having one of them days where everything is just bleak, and I am just sad and moody. I am actually feeling very sick too. I have been checking my phone all day as I am expecting a very important mail or SMS that will determine the next step in my career. So, I believe you can imagine how my heart thumps each time the red light on my phone beeps.
I am now tired of checking every email or text message. I decided to get some sleep after all tomorrow will be another day, while lying down I had a flash bulb moment of the real feeling of waiting and expecting. The anxiety, the pressure, the fear, the pain, the feeling of what if? Crazy!! I got up and turned my laptop on and here we are again:
At some point ,we have all been in God's waiting room. Either waiting for the fruit of the womb, waiting for who to marry, waiting for a break through financially, waiting for that big break in your business, waiting for a new job, waiting on that nomination, waiting for your migration/relocation to come through and so on. Because life is such a journey, we all have to go through waiting moments.
How do you cope when you are in the waiting room? Are you like me? Always paranoid? Always scared that it may not work out? I have met people who handle pressure so beautifully that you will hug them and want to lick their faces. Like, how in God's name are you so calm?????
My heart is presently doing 490cpm (counts per minute). I have put my phone on silent because I don't want to see any message again tonight but then my mind is still on it. Then I think abut the couples seeking God's face for children: sex becomes routine to them. Not doing it for the pleasure but just so that a baby will come, the many times the woman gets poked emotionally and physically.
The many insensitive stuff people will say out of sheer wickedness or just plain silly jokes...when are you giving us a baby, are you till doing sisi it is now 2 years since you got married. The person will now let out one shrill evil laugh at the end of that nonsense statement.
Or is it the 37 year old single woman, who has been praying to God for a life partner. Only for someone to say : I think it is your car, it is too flashy. Or maybe you can tone down how you dress, it is scaring men away. Oh, it is your position at work. You know you won't really have time to socialise much as the CEO.
Or the person trying to relocate/migrate: every effort has been coming to nought and then you hear people say may be "abroad is not in your destiny, let all of us be roughing it together here".
Or that person trying to get a job...then you 9 to 5 is not for everybody. May be you should try driving uber , or buying and selling . You know, just don't depend on this office thing. The aspire to perspire people will even tell you how they started a fish pond with a drop of water.
Search yourself, are you kind to people who are in God's waiting room. Do you say things that pull down and not lift up their spirits?
Do you encourage? Do you know when to keep your mouth shut? Do you know when to just affirm and agree with the person in waiting? Do you listen, do your pray for and with them?
Being kind and empathetic takes a very conscious effort. We all fall short unknowingly most times. We can do better. We should do better. You do not have to be in someone's shoes to show compassion.
It is now 1.37pm Sunday the 12th.
2 very long days later. Mood has improved a little.
The mail is not here yet. ...I am hopeful.
Love and a string of shinny lights.
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Fola.
May our waiting not be in vein. Thanks as always
ReplyDeleteAmen. Thank You too for reading.
DeleteThe wait ** usually tough. So many issues will test your mental capacity, your faith , beliefs, self esteem and so much more. I find listening to soul lifting music usually helps and definitely talking to someone who builds not anyone or everyone. Mental health is key in theses times
ReplyDeleteVery true. I do the music thing too, then i find myself slipping and i am quick to remind myself that when there is life hope is certain. Thank You.
DeleteI know what this waiting is like and I also know God is of the 11th hour who makes ALL things beautiful in his time. My faith is joined with yours
ReplyDeleteAmen, thank You so much.
DeleteIts not easy to wait, i must say i have been there severally and i must confess am stronger than i thought. There was a time I wrote Total exam in PH then, after I had already passed two stages, my hopes were high, I waited for close to 2 months before they got back that I didn't pass the last stage, all I did was to give thanks to giver of life because once there is life there is hope. So no matter the outcome. All will be well..
ReplyDeleteWow, but see God today. He already orders our steps. The waiting process is a tough one but like you said, we are stronger than we think. Thank you for sharing your story.
DeleteWe all have been in that position at some point in our lives. Waiting for that mailbor that call. I remember back Uni, before the era of mobile phone, how i had to wait at bus garages for my Fiancee (My wife now) to arrive back in school from home...looking through all the bus windows. Hoping she'll step off one of the buses....lol. Anyways, i always end up in Ibadan the next morning, if she is not back on the agreed day, to bring her back with me🤣🤣🤣
ReplyDeletehahaaa...I know who this is. Thank God for innovation and technology.
DeleteI find it amazing how i handle results of suspense filled waits. Regardless of the outcome I pick up and move (especially when it's negative) and draw strength from the fact that am alive and able to try again.
ReplyDeleteYou are one of a kind. One of the people who stay calm through a storm, can i lick ya face??? Hahaa. It takes a lot of strength tho, learning daily. Thank You.
DeleteIn life we are always waiting for one thing or the other. I have come to accept this fact. While some things come without asking, we wait for most. This to me is just God being His Sovereign Self. Thanks Fola. Love and light
ReplyDeleteThanks babe. At every point we are all in God's waiting room. May Hs grace always see us through the storm. Love ya babes.
DeleteYou won't believe it,but I'm presently in that situation for 7 months became critical for the last two months but I still pull through LRT with expectant hope! What we all need in those periods is EMPATHY and support not some sarcastic jokes which is common practice and touches nerve endings with somewhat of a negative effect. If only we can all sharpen our Emotional Intelligence to empathise the better for us. SHALOM.
DeleteAmazing how we all smile through pains and difficulties.
DeleteGlad to know we have ourselves as backup when needed.
It can only get better. Thanks AJ.
Hmmmm... very deep. I hope to be a kinder and better person. Momo, this is nice. ��
ReplyDeleteThanks Adunni.
DeleteHmmmm, been down that road where you are waiting on God for so many years for a child and pple just say rubbish sometimes without been sensitive to the reason behind the delay. I always say keep you advise and opinion to yourself cos you never know how it rubs of on d person and knowing how we live in such a wicked world where even those who sympathise with you and say it is well bla bla bla are the same ones who gossip and mock you so hey��♀️
ReplyDeleteWow, I just want to thank God for you hun. We as humans must do better, censor our words, watch our actions. It is something that needs to be done consciously.
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